How To Deal With Anger: A Life-Changing Practice

Anger is often a secondary emotion, used to help keep us "safe" from feeling out of control. Often underneath feelings of anger is fear, sadness, jealousy, and other emotions that seem unpleasant to our ego.

The most powerful way that I have found to dissolve anger is to instantly become vulnerable, and speak those feelings that our anger is trying to protect us from. How do we know if we're getting really vulnerable? True, deep vulnerablity leaves us feeling a surge of self-love. When we express those feelings that our ego is trying to mask with anger, our heart becomes vulnerable and opens, and we feel very strong and safe in that moment. In a moment of true vulnerability, it doesn't matter what anyone says to us as a result, because we are empowered with self-love.

Mudras to Assist with Ascension Energies

During yesterday's online meditation I was shown a new mudra we can use to assist in running the energy of this particular wave of ascension energy.

Many of us seem to be exploring the space between worlds or realms. This is the dreamscape, also known as the astral realms or the fourth dimension. We are learning a lot about time, and the space of no-time, as well as the insanity of the mental realms.

Mudras can help us move through energy shifts because, when we use our hands, we are consciously running our heart energy. Being anchored in the Heart space will guide us through the astral realms, and help us receive the higher truth lessons through these shifts.

 
 

The Spiritual Significance of Sexual Attraction

Why are we attracted to certain people, and not others?

For our soul purpose, our sexual attractions play an important role in magnetizing us directly to those people we are meant to connect with, in order to learn a lesson that we desire to learn.

This lesson isn't always a fun one. While we may have wishes or expectations of how this attraction will play out (a long-lasting loving relationship? Fulfilled desire?) often our lessons come in the form of pain or sorrow. But don't discount the fun and pleasurable experiences we have - at times too, our lessons show up as ecstatic joy! This is a very valuable thing to learn in life, and can indeed be brought to us through attraction to another person.

To be conscious within what we are experiencing, while also allowing the multidimensional knowing of the human experience, we can ask the question: "What are you bringing into my life? What lesson is there within this connection?"

And then, of course, PLAY! Don't deny yourself the human joys and trials of learning. Instead, play with your experience, and allow yourself to make new choices.

Love to you!

Allison

 

 
 

What Is Your Life Purpose?

This is a big question for a lot of people - what am I here for? What is my purpose, and how do I live it? The short version is that your life purpose is to shine your energetic frequency, and from bringing your frequency, your life path and work will reveal themselves. We are so focused on doing in our society that it can be confusing to understand how simple this is; but through focusing on our energy first and shining our unique frequency, we find our inspiration along the way and life the life we were born to live, day by day.
 

The Guru at The Top of The Mountain

Image source: Michael Maslin

Image source: Michael Maslin

Many of the old mythology and stories around finding enlightenment talk of a guru sitting in meditation at the top of a mountain. Mere mortals, who have not become enlightened, follow their hero’s journey to scale this summit and ask the sacred guru their one question, to learn the meaning of life through the guru’s enigmatically sparse answer.

Times are changing, and we are no longer in the age of the guru; enlightenment is no longer reserved for only a handful, as masses of the human population are experiencing awakenings and rapidly launching into hyper-reality which, in an instant or even over the course of a few days or months, can bring one to the state that was anciently known as enlightenment. And while we still need help to find our way through this maze, we no longer reserve the status of guru to a few chosen beings. It is within us all; we become it consciously.

For a while – or for some, the rest of their lives – our awakening spawns a fearful need to change the world. Talk of conspiracy theories, doom, and gloom, and all the fun-house aspects of the fourth dimension take our attention. But this is merely a sign of what is within – our shadow work still needs to be dealt with if we see the world surrounding us as in danger, or needing to change. If we are still in fear and the need to change or control, we are not yet unified within. our vision of truth needs to expand.

In a highly complex universe that is based on energy, there can be no wrong. To believe that it is possible to create an error shows that we must expand our understanding of the workings of the All. Truly, the universe is so complete and quantum that it cannot be “broken”.
— The Era of The True Creator

The fun part in our journey comes when we have integrated the knowledge of enlightenment, released the shadow stories, and are able to see beyond the duality to embrace All. This is where play begins. we appreciate, love, and embrace the human experience for all that it is, and learn that even our perceived pain and suffering is a joy – a ravishingly delicious and all-encompassing experience to have.  The joy of simply being human becomes indescribably fulfilling.

We have climbed the mountain already, and have seen the view from the top. And NOW, maybe we want to hike around a bit! Maybe we want to have a picnic or even build a house on the hillside, which we find just as beautiful as the top summit. Because we have been to the top of the mountain and we know experientially that it exists, what it feels like in our bodies, we know that we can go there at any time we choose. And just as in the story of Siddhartha, maybe after all that we've come to know, we want to be a ferryman.

Of course this is a symbolic explanation – there is no summit to reach, no end to our journey, even in ascension. But what I am trying to show here is that we come to a point where our desire for continued growth guides us to let go of the linear model of what our ascension process can look like. We cease to be confined to the idea of ascension being a one-way trajectory, a teleological journey.

Ascension becomes Expansion.

Expansion involves being multidimensional in our scope of our experience. We are not just “going up” as we may be thinking, but are integrating the full experience of life, and exploring whatever aspects we choose. This is not a path of renunciation of the human experience, but PLAY within it. The path of the True Creator is one of embracing All That Is, and knowing new viewpoints and creative pursuits within it.

Play allows us the creative human experience without the confines of dualistic judgment. Through play, we continue our expansion with ecstatic joy in the journey, no matter what it looks like.

Mindgasms Are Real: The Pineal Gland as a Clitoris

Mindgasms are real: the pineal gland as a clitoris

Most people tend to think of an orgasm as a centralized experience, a physical sensation that happens in the genital area of our bodies. Indeed it can be such a powerful physical sensation that it can distract us from recognizing the energetic movement that occurs during these muscle contractions.

To experience other types of orgasm that can be felt in many areas of our bodies, we need to open our perception beyond the knowledge of pure physicality and tangibility into the realms of sensing energy, and we need to know how to activate and run this energy. By learning to run our energy throughout our body and auric field, all of our energy centers open up and amazing things can happen. The pleasure that is produced and centered in one area – as in a joyful thought in our mind, or a sexual orgasm in our genitals – can be distributed and multiplied throughout our entire system. This has the effect of a joy-filled, ecstatic aura and a happy, healthy body.

Before recently diving into sexuality coaching and sensual touch therapies, I practiced Reiki energy work for two years. A Reiki session involves channeling universal energy through my crown chakra and down through my hands, then directing this energy into another person’s energy field, as well as “reading” or perceiving the subtle energies of their field to know where to direct this energy. During a Reiki session I can “see” visual representations in my mind of what is happening inside someone’s body and energy field.

During one particular session on a man attending a plant medicine retreat, I held my hands near his head and read the energy there. In my mind’s eye I saw a picture of his auric field: just to the front of his third eye was an opening that looked like the entrance to a vagina. I was shown that I needed to ask to enter his auric field through this opening, and then connect with what was occurring in his pineal gland area.

My processing this afterwards lead me to the thought: what if we can stimulate the pineal gland to produce an orgasm in our minds?! How would one do such a thing?

I then perceived that his pineal gland was large and very active; it was actually throbbing with activity, and I could see it pulse as if it were an engorged clitoris! Talking with him after the session, he shared that he was incredibly sensitive and activated in his third eye, and often had waking visions as well as visionary dreams.

My processing this afterwards lead me to the thought: what if we can stimulate the pineal gland to produce an orgasm in our minds?! How would one do such a thing? My initial ideas involved using sounds to stimulate the pineal gland through vibration, having heard a bit about the sound vibrations the yogis tune into through mantra for the purpose of activating these centers. I attempted humming and vocalizing towards this aim, but I admit I was impatient, and the stimulation it produced was too subtle for me to feel any results. (I am currently revisiting this technique - I will share what I find.)

But what did end up producing a mental orgasm was spinal breathing during sex with my husband. Once, as we were making love and I felt myself getting close to climaxing, I began spinal breathing, a process of bringing my energy up through my spinal column, from my tailbone and up to the base of my skull, then into the center of my mind and through the top of my head. I felt a clean white stream of light running all the way up my spine that entered my brain, and as I orgasmed, the pulse of the orgasm filled my skull, the gentle throb of energy rolling through my mind. It was a wonderful feeling, subtler that I would have expected but still very pleasurable.

Spinal breathing has been an integral part of my energy practice since I learned it several years ago. To incorporate it into your personal practice, watch the video below where I describe the process. (Please note, this video was posted a year ago on my old YouTube channel - my new YouTube channel can be found HERE.)

 

Questions? Contact me or schedule a session.

May you be filled with ecstatic pleasure.

 
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Why am I a sexuality coach?

Like many of us, I grew up in a rather conservative and religious household, where right and wrong was clearly defined through the doctrines of the church that we attended. As is common in religion, there were acts that were deemed sinful, and ways to correct ourselves from these acts if they occurred. For us this was called the repentance process, and entailed a recognition of the sin through confession to a church authority, followed by a period of time spent in contrition and seeking forgiveness from god.

I bring this up because it set up a specific process in my life that continued well into adulthood. To summarize, my process was this: sin now, repent later, and feel bad about myself and any possible sexual desires I have ALL the time. Each cycle held two forms: for a while I would be liberated and pursue my curiosities in life, though there were always underlying feelings of shame and worry that I was doing something wrong; this was then followed by time spent deep in the study of very fulfilling spiritual practices, where I would reject my sexual nature and feel slightly false and incomplete.

This internal process continued well after I stopped practicing religion at age 20. The surprising thing for me was to see that it continued even after I had my spiritual awakening in 2012.

As soon as my awakening began, sexual pleasure vanished from my scope. I was suddenly able to perceive multidimnesionally, and I felt disturbed and somewhat traumatized to see what was happening on an energetic level when we engaged with others in sexually manipulative or unconscious ways, and at the time I didn’t have the tools to deal with it all – my world during the beginning of my awakening was being completely turned upside down, and all I wanted to do was find my newly placed footing.

I also felt pleasure coming through in new and fascinating areas: channeling, intuitive learning, and all the completely new experiences I was having filled me up with a new kind of ecstasy, and sexual pleasure paled in comparison for a brief amount of time.

And though its true that my time was taken up with these new areas of intense learning, it was also true that I still felt conflicted about sex. I wondered why I didn’t want it anymore, and came to realize that I had never really liked it much. Sex to me in the past had been an avenue of social connection, experimentation and playful (yet disconnected) exploration. It had never been fulfilling, and I slowly realized – shockingly – that it had never even physically felt very good to me. This lack of physical pleasure had nothing to do with what my partners had or hadn’t done, or how well they did it; it had everything to do with my inability to let go and enjoy the pure pleasure of sex.

Coming to unify this rift over the past four years has been a slowly unfolding process, as graciously, the universe has been guiding me to see that pleasure and spirituality are not really two separate pursuits, but one in the same.

Though I felt afraid to explore sex because it didn’t fit with my ideas of what I was supposed to be or do as a “spiritual” person, compulsion took over – eventually my body put up a fight where I didn’t want to look and my craving to have some unnamable force within me fulfilled caused me to be distracted daily. I found myself wanting to play again, as I had before my awakening, to explore pleasure in many ways, but I didn’t know how to do it in a new and developed way with all that I had learned about energy and congruency in the past years. My internal tension grew: I couldn’t let go, and yet my body propelled me towards fulfillment.

The energetic universe is a funny place – as Rumi says, “that which we seek is seeking us”. Though I tried to find logical outlets for my desires, what inevitably showed up was circumstances that were unplanned and messy. Through lots of pleasure and also LOTS of heartache, all that my body was yearning for came to me in various forms – and it was all incredibly enlightening.

The past six months have been a whirlwind of integration, allowing me to become a unified, sexual being for the first time in my life.

And as soon as 2018 came around, another calling showed itself to me, quite clearly.

I moved from Santa Fe NM to the Pacific Northwest – and from sunny days to constant rain. As I meditated at the hilly summit of a nearby hiking trail, I asked, “What am I doing here? What do I do now?” and I immediately heard, “You are here to be a sexuality coach. Don’t get another job. Just do this.”

I see now that this is a natural progression for my life: I was a stripper in my early 20’s, and later owned a pole dance studio for five years. My spiritual/sexual cycle brought me to explore a diverse range of experiences that can bring us pleasure, from the crown chakra to the root and everything in between and beyond. These past experiences, coupled with the intuitive gifts I work with and the coaching I have done for three years now come together to form a clearer picture that I have been on this track for much of my life, though it is still a surprise to me.

So now, I offer myself to the process. I'm excited to see where this all leads.

 

For more information on what I offer, please visit the SESSIONS page.

How To Genuinely Love Everyone

Hi Friends,

What a funny topic this is - I have spent months knowing this is something I want to talk about, and yet until recently didn't feel ready because the truth of it wasn't integrated into my reality and consciousness. Now I'm ready.

Loving every single being on this planet is a very simple thing to do. Here's the big secret:

To love everyone, move into the heart center, and exist there.

Our minds are what cause us to believe we are separate, and to pass judgement on others as "safe" or "unsafe". But when we move into the heart, we see that we are eternal and ALL are safe because WE are safe - we can never be created nor destroyed. Our Heart space is only interested in existing in pure love and allowing that pure love to radiate out to others around us. No one is exempt - not the president, nor those who seem to be hurting us, nor our family members or our somewhat tenuous friendships. Divine love is an energy that is unafraid of lack of reciprocation.

An interesting thing occurs when we are in the Heart in a space of Divine love: not only do we love everyone without reservation, we also like everyone because we see them as fascinating and beautiful - not threatening. 

And even more interesting is this: when we are in a space of divine love within the Heart, we feel the love that everyone has for us. We connect with the fullness of the higher-self of each person, and see how fun this experience is for all of us. 

Love to You!

Allison

Ascension Update: Unifying Duality

Unifying Duality

A note about Ascension Updates:

Ascension updates are not time-specific. By that I mean that this is not astrological or time-based, but rather this is a gateway that most of us will experience and go through at some point along our ascension path. It does seem that many are experiencing this need for unification right now, but many have already gone through this and many more still will experience it when it comes along their individual timeline.

The gateway of unifying duality comes to us after we have reached the end of our shadow work, and are in the realms of enlightenment. From this place, that I call the "zero point", we are free to make choices without the baggage of stuck pain in our energy field and mind.

As this comes up for us, we will notice ourselves being faced with an area in our psyche that is still anchored in dualism, where we feel limited. We may feel we don't have freedom of being both human and heavenly, or that there is a part of ourselves that we simply can't accept because to accept it would mean facing our biggest fears of not getting what we want in that area.

For me, this showed up in reconciling my sexual desires, and feeling simultaneously that I could never have these desires fulfilled if I wanted to also live my life purpose. For others, it is facing the inner fear of abandonment, or feeling that we can't have a wide spectrum of human emotions and still be perfect as we are - that we are flawed in our human-ness. For others still, it is showing up as limiting monetary beliefs. However it is showing up for you, know that we are being asked to face deep psychological fears, and that by unifying our inner duality, we will find freedom.

Lots of Love,

Allison